Self-Love in the Time of Anxiety
“Let us step into the night and pursue that flighty temptress, adventure.” ― J.K. Rowling
For the last year I've been talking about wanting to get out of town, of going on an adventure outside of Los Angeles, but due to unforeseen circumstances that hand't been an option. On Monday I decided that no matter what I was going to make going out of town next weekend my number one priority, and yesterday (before I could talk myself out of it) I booked a place to stay in. The place will remain a secret until I get there, so keep an eye on Instagram and Twitter.
In the past, getting out of dodge has been a way for me to reset, reflect, reevaluate and meditate. This trip will be an artist retreat, a place to create and to be present. Life has been demanding, and what's been so exhausting has nothing to do with what feeds my soul or my long term goals. I've always learned lessons the hard way, and I think that what's happening now is the biggest one yet. This year's and last year's happenings are making me realize two things:
1)I need to be honest with myself and honor what I feel
2)setting boundaries and not making exceptions when what's at stake is sacrificing my well being or happiness
Perhaps not here, but on other platforms I've been vocal about my anxiety. Anxiety is one of those things that comes to me so naturally that it's practically a way of life. With everything that's happened in the last year my anxiety has flowed more than it has ebbed. Despite it's flow, I've been actively working on confronting it head on. I like to think that there are lessons to be learned from everything, and the two things I listed above have been a great source of anxiety for me. Honoring my feelings and setting boundaries have been terrifying concepts. Now, more than ever, I need to embrace and finally acknowledge that my anxiety about these two things are the very thing keeping me where I am.
We all face adversity, whether or not we decide to confront it, that is the difference between growth and stagnation. I've been shrouded by fear and anxiety and this trip is my way of turning on those two things and flipping them off. You know, like the proper lady that I am.
Six days until my trip and I am giddy, giddy, giddy!