End of Year To-Do List Check In
“Don't be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson
At the start of the year I kicked off my first entry with a post about embracing failure and I shared the to-do list that I make at the end of every year. For as long as I've been making these lists, this is the worst that I've ever done with one. Out of the 14 listed items, I've accomplished 5. Sure, the year isn't over, there's still time for me to at least leave the state, but realistically that probably won't happen. And you know what? That's entirely okay.
While there are still five weeks left of the year, I can say, with all the confidence in the world, that it's been a big year for growth. Though at a quick glance the progress I've made seems minuscule, when I really take a step back and take everything in, I can see that to be a gross understatement. Sure, I didn't travel anywhere new or go on any great adventure, but I've been learning a thing or two about myself. I'm learning the art of self-forgiveness, of opening up, of asking for help, and of putting myself first. I'm learning how embracing the aforementioned concepts has further opened up the creative half of myself (the part of me that's felt stagnant and stifled).
Risking with abandon and apologizing less is where I want to get to. I've been timidly dipping my toes outside of my comfort zone and apologizing for fear of...honestly, I'm not sure of what. Fear of fear I suppose. I look forward to what more I'll learn in the next five weeks, and I also look forward to working on my 2018 To-Do List.